my heart is struggling for sure. wan or don't wan. I can't decide. my heart says wan, my mind say nope. I misses you at the point when I am thinking you are gone forever. can't bear to leave, can't bear to see you go. but you wanted to leave so much that causes me to hurt so much. doshiyou~

i know i had to let you go. i know that fact, but my heart is resisting it so strongly against it.

flipping thru,
viewing the past,
going down the memory lane...


I see so much
I saw so much
I heard you...


The pain, the happiness, the saddness
that was past, and grow


gone,
I've changed...
I've enjoyed much more in my life without you...

I don't understand why I used to say I don't know how to live without you...
The freedom in my life...
wow~

I feel that...
My heart feels so much lighted without the burden inside...

The book closed...

A new chapter begins...
A new page to start with...
A fresh new start?

Wander if I am up to changes' challenge?

3 years plan... =D!

Been've some time...
Some times, I wander why didn't I start earlier?

I feel that I have so much things that I still wanna learn, but do I have the time to focus so much things at a time? Do I have the finanical support to learn?

I wanna cont'd learning things of my own interest... do i have the time?
but at least I am glad, I did start...

After so long...
cause of some incident, didn't drive for some time already...
took some time for parents to persuade me =/
ok... so went to fetch my mom home~ all the way to bukit merah~ zzz... so far... why does she have to work so far...

is scary to drive again since i didn't drive like 2wks or mayb more?
since the poor car is still under repair...
after some point of time, like forget how to control my speed =/ *tsk tsk* =x! But it's still safe! =x

brought eeyore down to accompany me.. lol...
eeyore camwhore!




which one looks cooler? o.0? i tink the blue one =x! heex~




this one looks like slpy eyes~

Eeyore snatch my wheel and drive! Zzzzz.... bad eeyore~ LOL~ but in fact......

his legs are too short, so he actually sat on the wheel itself only =p!

Things are slowly changing bit by bit... i guess...
just a very very slow improvement...

Hope this time I won't be lying to myself anymore...
Next year would be a new stage and is really a new beginning for me...

Late post, but edit...
haha.. Thanks to all my friends whom celebrate my birthday with me. Very happy *huggs*

25 Nov.

Celebrate with kisaki-love and hk. Meet at cwp, and they buy dinner. heex... recieved a big bag, my present! =D! than drove to kranji war memorial... the road was scary when going up, cause the lights isnt on. Stupid baka dun no how to go express way so go the bus route way... lol...
But the gate is lock.. so went to kranji dam... Walk around the places all also lock. sad sia... than picnic at the road side beside my car. haha.. having fun.. =D!

sit and chat around... it starts to drizzle... went to coffee bean and sit around while baka does his rj.. sad... that didn't get to see the stars... and soon nid to go off already.. cause saki nid to reach home like 10+... so send her home first =D!

maybe a bit hard to find the roads around. kinda got lost, cause went up the wrong way of the highway =x! haha... ok lar. at least after that able to. let baka off at one of the bus stop, cause if went too far, ltr no bus home. than went up to pie and change cte... Home like 11+?

rush to bath and bed....

nov 26.

morning wake up quite early like 8+? than prepare and take to amk and accompany jovii for her test. after that went home to change my shoe, cause walk half way it spolit. = ='''

meet jovii with her ex collegues for lunch, than meet junli and jin yan for dinner.
At first went shopping.... first got a sunflower. =D! than junli went to get a balloon. lol.. than tie to my left hand. walk around in orchard shopping.

Jin yan is hungry, so we went to get food and sit at civic plaza so that he can eat. Than I realise my bag is stuck!!! cause the ballon is tied to my left hand, i can't get my bag out. =((! Than darling junli help me take it out. heex..

sit at starbucks and rest. cause my legs are tired~~ after jovii left, cause she got rehearsal. anyway yulong came. mess up my hair again. anyway is messy le. lol... walk towards PS frm wisma... walk pass John Little? i tink. they got me a mask, and wore it.. it irritates my eyes =(
than got "half price" wear on my forehead. haha... nxt is go to OG's starbucks, ask for ice milk tea. = =''' was like huh~~~ *skip*
walk till PS, they get my a reindeer hairband! is soo small.. but still wore it and went to fish n co for dinner. lol.

fish n co, more dare games = =''
1.take photo with guy waiter =/ * the guy IS CUTE*
2. dance with one of the waiter or waitress *lucky they reject!*
3. take grp photo with the other customers * done with a grp of girls... winks*
4. eat cake that is mix with salt, pepper and the 2 drinks * salty!*

than went to find pz and disturb her. haha... have a fun day..
but than the next day 27, i m so dead... plus still got ut = ='' lol

Anyway... THANKS ALL!!! it was really a fun bday! =D!!!

heex... got my first bday present already.. =D!
is baby eeyore~ kawaii~~~ thanks to jovii, xf and jia min~
ahaha....
upon recieving it, was like laughing and smiling... than keep telling shu rin, my mouth can't close... =x!
was playing with it and hugging in class oso... junli and shu rin took some picture of it too.
went gym for the first time with junli~ ahha.. was cycling and run abit? didn't reli sweat =/
went dinner after that with junli and her someone.. haha... can be part-time light production...


little eeyore~