~^~Angel~^~

2011-12-15T13:25:00.003+08:00

3 years past... and I came back to a similar spot all of a sudden.

The 'you' that once exist...

Things change. Life change.

Sometimes I wander, if I am doing the right things.

Moved on...

Supposedly to grad nxt sem, but I've dragged it to grad one year ltr.
Guess I doing the same thing again, running away from my problems.

The new chapter unfolds...

2009-06-21T18:50:00.002+08:00

my heart is struggling for sure. wan or don't wan. I can't decide. my heart says wan, my mind say nope. I misses you at the point when I am thinking you are gone forever. can't bear to leave, can't bear to see you go. but you wanted to leave so much that causes me to hurt so much. doshiyou~

i know i had to let you go. i know that fact, but my heart is resisting it so strongly against it.

2009-02-18T20:37:00.003+08:00

flipping thru,
viewing the past,
going down the memory lane...

I see so much
I saw so much
I heard you...

The pain, the happiness, the saddness
that was past, and grow

gone,
I've changed...
I've enjoyed much more in my life without you...

I don't understand why I used to say I don't know how to live without you...
The freedom in my life...
wow~

I feel that...
My heart feels so much lighted without the burden inside...

The book closed...

A new chapter begins...
A new page to start with...
A fresh new start?

Wander if I am up to changes' challenge?

3 years plan... =D!

2009-01-13T11:46:00.004+08:00

Been've some time...
Some times, I wander why didn't I start earlier?

I feel that I have so much things that I still wanna learn, but do I have the time to focus so much things at a time? Do I have the finanical support to learn?

I wanna cont'd learning things of my own interest... do i have the time?
but at least I am glad, I did start...

2008-12-20T22:38:00.006+08:00

After so long...
cause of some incident, didn't drive for some time already...
took some time for parents to persuade me =/
ok... so went to fetch my mom home~ all the way to bukit merah~ zzz... so far... why does she have to work so far...

is scary to drive again since i didn't drive like 2wks or mayb more?
since the poor car is still under repair...
after some point of time, like forget how to control my speed =/ *tsk tsk* =x! But it's still safe! =x

brought eeyore down to accompany me.. lol...
eeyore camwhore!

which one looks cooler? o.0? i tink the blue one =x! heex~

this one looks like slpy eyes~

Eeyore snatch my wheel and drive! Zzzzz.... bad eeyore~ LOL~ but in fact......

his legs are too short, so he actually sat on the wheel itself only =p!

2008-12-16T09:31:00.001+08:00

Things are slowly changing bit by bit... i guess...
just a very very slow improvement...

Hope this time I won't be lying to myself anymore...
Next year would be a new stage and is really a new beginning for me...

2008-11-28T11:32:00.000+08:00

Late post, but edit...
haha.. Thanks to all my friends whom celebrate my birthday with me. Very happy *huggs*

25 Nov.

Celebrate with kisaki-love and hk. Meet at cwp, and they buy dinner. heex... recieved a big bag, my present! =D! than drove to kranji war memorial... the road was scary when going up, cause the lights isnt on. Stupid baka dun no how to go express way so go the bus route way... lol...
But the gate is lock.. so went to kranji dam... Walk around the places all also lock. sad sia... than picnic at the road side beside my car. haha.. having fun.. =D!

sit and chat around... it starts to drizzle... went to coffee bean and sit around while baka does his rj.. sad... that didn't get to see the stars... and soon nid to go off already.. cause saki nid to reach home like 10+... so send her home first =D!

maybe a bit hard to find the roads around. kinda got lost, cause went up the wrong way of the highway =x! haha... ok lar. at least after that able to. let baka off at one of the bus stop, cause if went too far, ltr no bus home. than went up to pie and change cte... Home like 11+?

rush to bath and bed....

nov 26.

morning wake up quite early like 8+? than prepare and take to amk and accompany jovii for her test. after that went home to change my shoe, cause walk half way it spolit. = ='''

meet jovii with her ex collegues for lunch, than meet junli and jin yan for dinner.
At first went shopping.... first got a sunflower. =D! than junli went to get a balloon. lol.. than tie to my left hand. walk around in orchard shopping.

Jin yan is hungry, so we went to get food and sit at civic plaza so that he can eat. Than I realise my bag is stuck!!! cause the ballon is tied to my left hand, i can't get my bag out. =((! Than darling junli help me take it out. heex..

sit at starbucks and rest. cause my legs are tired~~ after jovii left, cause she got rehearsal. anyway yulong came. mess up my hair again. anyway is messy le. lol... walk towards PS frm wisma... walk pass John Little? i tink. they got me a mask, and wore it.. it irritates my eyes =(
than got "half price" wear on my forehead. haha... nxt is go to OG's starbucks, ask for ice milk tea. = =''' was like huh~~~ *skip*
walk till PS, they get my a reindeer hairband! is soo small.. but still wore it and went to fish n co for dinner. lol.

fish n co, more dare games = =''
1.take photo with guy waiter =/ * the guy IS CUTE*
2. dance with one of the waiter or waitress *lucky they reject!*
3. take grp photo with the other customers * done with a grp of girls... winks*
4. eat cake that is mix with salt, pepper and the 2 drinks * salty!*

than went to find pz and disturb her. haha... have a fun day..
but than the next day 27, i m so dead... plus still got ut = ='' lol

Anyway... THANKS ALL!!! it was really a fun bday! =D!!!

2008-11-21T23:54:00.003+08:00

heex... got my first bday present already.. =D!
is baby eeyore~ kawaii~~~ thanks to jovii, xf and jia min~
ahaha....
upon recieving it, was like laughing and smiling... than keep telling shu rin, my mouth can't close... =x!
was playing with it and hugging in class oso... junli and shu rin took some picture of it too.
went gym for the first time with junli~ ahha.. was cycling and run abit? didn't reli sweat =/
went dinner after that with junli and her someone.. haha... can be part-time light production...

little eeyore~

2008-11-16T20:33:00.003+08:00

Went out alone these few days to find books~
so, i finally bought the notebook. haha...
went to the library finding books oso for fyp... @.@

been thinking alot of things lately.
Should i or should i not?
leaving things to fate... haha...

Ytd went for standard chart briefing. so was meeting junli in school...
Was scare at first... =/ *u know the reasons, maybe~*
Sticking close to junli all the time.

After all not so bad. =x! maybe just stick to my duties and ignore the rest like i always do?
during grp briefing, *junli left me!!* -sobs- cause we are at different station, ishh really so near yet so far. both of us located at ecp, but at different parts of ecp. = ='
wadever~ only get to see the full marathon guys...

shu rin~ can't see u run le!!!! sian~
-the not so bad thing is!.... I got a primary sch friend in the same station as mine- LOL! but tink i will still be alone, cause arent that close with her.
junli seems stun when she saw that i was chatting with another person in my grp already... lol~~~ =x!

Reporting time was 2am ._.
dead........ no slping time? sat slp more lor.... no choice.. can't slp oso have to force myself to slp le. =X! *excites abt that day* cause i am able to go out at late nite? *heex~ *mayb i m still able to get to see the sunrise? cause i m located at ecp?

It felts so much that is my last year of schooling... so i want to make memories out of it day by day... Sometimes, I jus wish you would be by my side... Even for the peace, with you by the side, would be a happy moment.

memories, we used to create can only be remain in the past. trying to create sweet memories of now. but it seems i felt myself getting very irritating? being an irritating pest towards you. i pull myself away from the com. drown myself with books which i nid for my report.

2008-11-11T00:26:00.000+08:00

wrote something cause i was bored~

From the Start,
Till the End.
I knew One day,
This would come to an End.

From the Start,
Till the End.
I never felt One day,
It would actually pass that fast...

From the Start,
Till the End.
Time has come,
To bring you go...

Till the End,
I know you would go,
When the Time has come,
Right from the start.

- Hana

2008-11-08T23:03:00.003+08:00

Com is down... Send for repair during wed. Only able to get back like 1 to 2 weeks time? Duno how I am going to suffer with this small com.

I felt like I am straining my eyes for this little screen. lol

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Loving the right person at the wrong time,
having the wrong person when the time is right
and finding out you love someone right after
that person walks out of your life...

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wad m i upset for? idk~

What is meant to be urs will be urs eventually,
If it doesn't no matter how it will still leave...
and doesn't belong to you.

Everything have it's ending...
I just realise how much I have wrote over the years in my little diary,
that is finally coming to the end...
when I am starting to write, I will be thinking when would I finish this book.
But now, I finally going to finish this book.
Maybe this little diary is trying to tell me, time to start anew?
I am tired, I want to rest already.
Shall kept it as a history...

Time to shop for a new book tml to replace this sweet little diary that accompany throughout so many years.

2008-11-01T21:45:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, I just wish someone can smack me to wake up from my runaways.

STUPID! PLEASE GET A GRIP OF URSELF!

I onli reliase this recently that my life ever since is onli sch and home, sch and home???
ok, maybe at times outing with some friends. which is so few?
till this holiday that it ended, I seems to be a mountain turtle that have just been brought out of my sweet hide out well...

Keep myself busy and tired myself out, is all still consider running away.

tml is the last day of the holidays. wander what should i do?

The knight wants to remain as the knight. as it shall remain and i shall leave....

2008-10-26T10:35:00.002+08:00

The monthly post =D! =x! that baka said x.x

List of things that I want to fulfilled before my 19th bday~*~*~* xD!
~~- Try a relationship~ (is the painful past~)~~ (currently in r/s with saki =3)
~~- Driving license~~ (just got it not long)
~~- Drive out alone!!~~ xD!
~~- Go overseas~~ (backpack) =D!
~~- Wear loli~~~~
- Clean up my room ._. (lazy~~)
~~- Get new phone~~ (new phoney~ w980) x3
~~- New mp3~~ (bought it during march)
~~- New laptop?~~ (heex... free lappy with webcam~)
~~- Start learning an instrument for leisure!~~
- Find out my dream job (even though might not consider as a job, i wan to be tai tai) xD!
- Dating with Saki~ *loves* *wants more* =x!
- Celebrate Christmas with someone special (wait till i find the right one i guess. Impossible to fufill)
~~- Dress up with saki love~ to events!~~
- Wants bunny coat~ *sobs* (dun have my size T.T)

The list seems to go on, but that's all i can tink of now =x!
Everytime, when it reaches my birthday, is also the meaning of the year is going to end again.
Left about 1mth left. Currently 2mths...
Am I possible to enjoy more?
Every ending, doesn't really mean is a end, but it do also means is a new beginning of your another change of life.

Every year when is ending, I would start thinking, what have I done this year meaningful? It seems every's year answer is always the same: "Nothing eh... I only fulfill things for my own selfish wants..."
Caused so much trouble to friends and family...

Recently~
hmm... got hook to facebook's pet society? I think so... but quite boring game.
falls for KAZAMI!!! omg~~ his drumming skills are sooo cool~ *admires* if compare to looks... i tink mayu looks cooler... cos of the hairstyle? *ignores the looks*
been listening to some songs baka sent ._. *just can't understand how come i m soo hooked to the songs* (maybe is the piano's sound that is so beautifully played)
Have been starting to try to analyse the song or music but just focusing on one of the instrument, how beautiful is each and every instrument is being used to create 1 song.

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Today went out to meet nicky! (maple friend frm KL) So he came to sg on friday, so meet up with him today with his gf. Met at cartel in PS, eat lunch tgt... than head to vivo, bring him to sentosa. go in only take the tram ride nia, cos he didn't have appropriate clothes nor shoes...
came back to vivo like 6+, than find places to eat for dinner, meet up with his other friends tgt. After dinner, ate bens and jerry... but that was like omg... the dinner was sooo full already. and the lunch was taken about 1+... 6 scoops of ice cream, 5 ppl shared. ._. very full and sweet~~~ very chocolate~~
went around and in the bookshop looking at interior design cause nicky wans reference books.
cause it was took late, so i head home first~
consider it a nice day i guess? =x!
Spend the whole day out, but dun reli felt so tired which I used to will when I head out for the whole day. It seems to be a long time ever since I went out to shopping and take a walk in sg.

well~ I missed those days, I guess... hahaha... this blog post sure took a long time to write eh... frm morning till now. =x

2008-10-19T22:35:00.002+08:00

the day is here again...

getting my frequent headaches again... hate it...
getting my sleepless nights again... sadden...
things were not the same as last yr.
the date maybe the same
but the year has changed.
the times have moved on...
since 8mths before?

The days since that day,
i felt i was jus running away...
as usual, i ran away when things begin.
never wanted to face them.

everyday, i've been pressing myself to do things
to forget the past, to numb myself...
sometimes, i just wander
why do i have to keep holding onto the past?
why can't i forget about them?

To the me now, i learnt another thing about them.
I've lost something that is precious is with them.
I don't know how to retrieve it back.

But is this feeling within me,
telling me that I am slowly retrieving it back,
but found it from someone else?
but you seems to be in the white world, while I am in the black worldis there a grey area for us?
would we spend the effort to create this grey world once again?
or am i just being alone for this black world to merge parts of it into the white world?

I don't know the things that is not within me.
I can't confirm the things that is not within me.
Caused I am not you.

To the past,
that I think I have placed down...

Life is fill with irony isn't it?

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The day just passed with doing reports for observation, and some practice.

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"You know, sometimes it is the artist's task to find out how much music you can still make with what you left" Perhaps our task is shaky, fast-changing, bewildering world in which we live is to make music, at first with all that we have, and then, when that is no longer possible, to make music with what we have left.
- Itzhak Perlman, violinist

2008-10-07T19:51:00.004+08:00

Suddenly few things changes in my life, i felt bad wonder what might happen the next moment...
Everytime something good happens I would have a feeling that something bad might happen...

I had a new lappy, thanks to singtel... lols~ cos signing new contract for internet. lappy quite small and cute... but the display is super small (8.9 inches?)... o.O? think i will just use it for fyp use... cos the battery can last.. hahaha... than can be easily portable... xD!
good thing is that the lappy got webcam! hahaha... can play liao... happy~*

2UT have just passed... the first UT got quite some shocked... only have 1 question = =''' and is a type of essay question... 2nd UT consider quite normal? just that have calculations... so long never do maths and need calculator for test le.. hahaha...

missed the date with saki... Saki: it's ok~ ^^ we still have time... haha... my school holiday will be coming soon.. haha... on the 25oct onwards..

Read about something in a forum... How true it is to be said... A long essay =x!

What happened to all the nice guys? The answer is simple: you did. See, if you think back, really hard, you might vaguely remember a Platonic guy pal who always seemed to want to spend time with you. He'd tag along with you when you went shopping, stop by your place for a movie when you were lonely but didn't feel like going out, or even sit there and hold you while you sobbed and told him about how horribly the (other) guy that you were ****ing treated you. At the time, you probably joked with your girlfriends about how he was a little puppy dog, always following you around, trying to do things to get you to pay attention to him. They probably teased you because they thought he had a crush on you. Given that his behavior was, admittedly, a little pathetic, you vehemently denied having any romantic feelings for him, and buttressed your position by claiming that you were "just friends." Besides, he totally wasn't your type. I mean, he was a little too short, or too bald, or too fat, or too poor, or didn't know how to dress himself, or basically be or do any of the things that your tall, good-looking, fit, rich, stylish boyfriend at the time pulled off with such ease. Eventually, your Platonic buddy drifted away, as your relationship with the boyfriend got more serious and spending time with this other guy was, admittedly, a little weird, if you werent dating him. More time passed, and the boyfriend eventually cheated on you, or became boring, or you realized that the things that attracted you to him weren't the kinds of things that make for a good, long-term relationship. So, now, you're single again, and after having tried the bar scene for several months having only encountered players and douche bags, you wonder, "What happened to all the nice guys?"Well, once again, you did.You ignored the nice guy. You used him for emotional intimacy without reciprocating, in kind, with physical intimacy. You laughed at his consideration and resented his devotion. You valued the aloof boyfriend more than the attentive "just-a-" friend. Eventually, he took the hint and moved on with his life. He probably came to realize, one day, that women aren't really attracted to guys who hold doors open; or make dinners just because; or buy you a Christmas gift that you mentioned, in passing, that you really wanted five months ago; or listen when you're upset; or hold you when you cry. He came to realize that, if he wanted a woman like you, he'd have to act more like the boyfriend that you had. He probably cleaned up his look, started making some money, and generally acted like more of an asshole than he ever wanted to be. Fact is, now, he's probably getting laid, and in a way, your ultimate rejection of him is to thank for that. And I'm sorry that it took the complete absence of "nice guys" in your life for you to realize that you missed them and wanted them. Most women will only have a handful of nice guys stumble into their lives, if that.
~End~

2008-09-26T21:44:00.002+08:00

The rainbow of life...
The colors of life...
Which color have you been through?

Colors are beautiful to see and appreciate
Rainbow appears once in awhile
Seen it or not?

The pain, happiness,
that gone through,
Describles the colors on the rainbow

Love the bright colors?
Hate the dark colors?
gone through them as usual...

Learn the colors of life,
using the rainbow...
As sweet as ever...

Never forget the things that you have learnt
for the rainbow of life,
for the colors that you've been through...

Colors of the Rainbow in life~

-花

2008-08-26T21:27:00.002+08:00

Got the news of the new classes... 3 days week having 3 classes...
still dun like the feeling of having a class with no close friends i guess...
the fear that is within me, is coming out again...
but lucky, i have 1 day being in the same class as my 2 close friends...

still i wander how am i going to survive with that 2 days? ._.
maybe i just want to be alone at times, but places with crowds, still carrys on with the fear from before...
如何しよう

as simple as it is... i m scared, not shy...

2008-08-22T21:01:00.002+08:00

What does a promise meant to you?

I treated the commitment of a promise dearly...

2008-08-15T21:50:00.002+08:00

hmm...

starting of the holidays already... and i m starting to get bored.. so fast!
on the 13 aug, i finally got my new phone! hahaa.... waited for it like since feb? =x!
started using on the 14! =x! heex... yar, it was quite nice lar.. jus that lag abit when 2 functions is being used at the same time.

today met up with cutie at JP. was like walking around aimlessly~ =x! play HOTD4 after that.. haha.. was fun~ though the gun was so faulty~ =x!
acc. her get the yukata, hers was like so nice~ *omg* *anticipating on natsu liao* x3

than tml was sec gathering... sort of a long time since met them already...
wander how have they all been except for cheri lar. =x! was like seeing her everyday in sch liao =x! * i refering to the rest~*
hope to have fun in shopping, and lots of catching up to do... hahha..

Life's been hard isn't it?
you are just being you,
different paths, we were walking...
things and times arent the same.
leaving you alone.
i live wad i live,
walking how i m walking
but not noticing anything else.

smts i wander...
people tend to force their way thru,
but is it a good idea to be rashless
but in another way,
is it a good idea to be too cautious?

2008-08-11T18:20:00.003+08:00

Jus changed the blogskin~ =x!
the music giving me some problems... *always* =(
hope can solve it soon~

Saki, this is the cute one that I told you~ heex...

and and the poem still can't tink of anything from my head~!
so jus pick a part from a song~ =x

2008-08-09T09:54:00.003+08:00

August holiday~ xD!

planning:
1. find a job?
2. Fyp 2nd sem
3. Natsu~ xD!!!

currently onli gt 3? =x! heex~~

FYP team gt new member... though feel bad about kicking one of the member by using lies =x!
hope can coope well with HIM! yes, is a guy~ unbelieveable =x!
*ps~ have to endure all the tough training* x=

FYP topics for this sems is more interesting than previous sem... Felt more exciting about this time round topic...
Picked some like:
1. Sport video game play and real-life physical activity
2. Business plan for sports-goods retailing
3. design the "effective teambuilding machine" -identifying the factors that go into designing a teambuilding activity
4. Exploring sports consumptive behaviors of sport video gamers

XD! Kind of more interested in the video gaming de... hahaha... but than... nid to use that stupid programme of SPSS again!! = =""
but gt to play PSP and Wii for FYP i guess~
heex~~~

monday or tue have to decide by than~

and and~ lastly of cos i wan to meet up with saki-dearie soon~~~

2008-07-25T14:34:00.003+08:00

Dear,

thanks for the memories that we had tgt...
the past that was so beautiful, that it didn't exist till today...
reviewing heart and deep down, i nelegected them so..
but currently enjoying it...
smile and laugh by myself whenever i tink of it...

The fate that U and I used to had,
is fading...
The crossed path that U and I used to walk together,
have passed by and walking away frm each other...

Hereby waiting for you quietly...
no matter wad the future lies...
till the day i leave...
always feel the way i wanted you to know...

:dedicated to someone unexpected...

2008-07-22T14:13:00.002+08:00

Emotionally: Very unstable
Mentally: Unstable
Physical: Sick
Stress level: High
Tireness: Alright (but always slpy, as usual)

Note: pls keep my mouth shut. so that I would not flare my temper on you.

2008-07-12T20:08:00.004+08:00

1. How long would you wait for someone you love?

- Till the end of the world

2. What do you hope for now?

- Get a grip of myself

3. What is the last thing you say/do if tomorrow is the end of the world?

- The last thing I would say is Thank you by my bed

4. Do u hate your friends sometimes?

- At times when I get irritated or moody, but gets over it in the next few mins

5. What's your favourite colour?

- Pink, black, white, red

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?

- Yes, as always after a storm there is calm…

7. Will you be happy, if the one you love is happy?

- Yes, if he is, I would too

8. What are you listening now?

- 傘月～New Ver.～ by ドレミ團
- 星空と君の手 by Daizy Stripper
Cos the list is too long, it lasted for 2 songs on my player since the beginning.

9. Are you happy with your life now?

- Yes, can consider happy as I am contented…

10. What if your crush ask you out?

- Just go out with him…

11.What would you do if your crush know you had a crush on him/her?

- Than just tell him straight and asked him if he wants to be with me

12. What feeling do you hate most?

- Being indecisive

13. You are currently in?

- Own room

14. What are you looking forward to the outcome weeks?

- Future, how life continues walking

15. The most important thing in your life?

- Currently is my family and friends

16. Who do you hope to be always there for you?

~~- Myself I guess? Don’t wish to trouble the others…~~ Saki-dearie say she will be there for me... =D!

17. Do you ever find life meaningless?

- Yes

18. What if you believe that there is 'True Love'?

- Yes

19. What if you lose someone important?

- Cry, and believe that he/she is living better else where

20. Can you forget about the past easily?

- Never, Each and every past that happens is a memory and lesson learnt. Unless I choose to...

2008-07-02T10:55:00.003+08:00

Things that have happen had happen...
They may not be the same but life still goes on.

Leave them if you are feeling so diffcult to catch up with them...
it totally seems like a different world for you and me.
the interest that once happen to be there is gone.
is hard...

whether you walk or run, you would also reach the finishing point...
why run? when you can walk and enjoy the secenry that is such a beauty?
why run? when you are so tired and need to lighten the burden on your legs?
are you nelegecting something that is so precious to you?

Stop being self-center will you? your friends will just leave you soon if you don't change... and time for you to go to the adult world is SOON and FAST not what you have though that you still have plenty of time!

Why humans are always contradicting themselves?

2008-06-28T19:15:00.004+08:00

It's been a 2 weeks since school started from the holidays...
I feel that I have changed alot.. to certain things I guessed...
Some things that I used to feel are giving me a different feeling. o.o?

To think sch is coming an end, it makes me feel that I have grown alot...
The past seems to gone so fast.

Ytd's bbq with saki's uni friends were fun... erm... let's see if i rmb their names = =''' *forget it... i type out and realise either i dun rmb or duno how to spell*
Maple: re-play another char for pirate = ='' need to retrain for bootes. lols... wait for saki bah.. lazy to train alone =x! or ask y.bro to help me train the first few levels... so i wun stuck there...
Had alot of fun at there chatting, and star gazing. =x! *though i did it already like last week in ecp oso*

The days that seems so peaceful after a hard day is nice and relaxing =D! Jus love them...
Though things were not the same... but life still needs to go on..

2008-06-28T19:10:00.002+08:00

Few pictures took when I was at East Coast park during someone's bday =x! I went to the beach to relax myself. It was peaceful and windy, cooling. =x! Went about the evening time, so get to saw the red moon ^^ it was nice~ the rest looks normal? Y.Bro acc me, cos he was standing there doing nth oso. End up he played with the sand and wind. haha...

2008-06-28T18:57:00.004+08:00

Next is sentosa~

The few secenaries that I took

Me~

Drawn this to disturb shu rin of cos~

Shu rin and her love for Caspian =x
playing with the shadow and water
On the skyride
shu rin and junli playing in the water

Those 2 posed in the water
Playing with the effects x.x
Cheri under the bridge made by shu rin and junli?

Under the same house

Of cos i m the photographer! that's why hardly gt my photos in it =x!

2008-06-28T18:24:00.004+08:00

This is the memories for the trip to genting~ =x!

This is on the merry-go-round *ps this is ugly*

In front of the pirate ship *felt boring for the ride* =x

New friends =D! *they look cute* =x!

the rocket shot = =' *after the ride, gt jelly legs plus toes all turn purple cos too cold*
KL
On the way down the mountains

2008-05-29T14:15:00.005+08:00

had a problem currently,

which is i loss interest in everything... felt everything is so bored...
the things i used to like to do,
are nth much to me now...
are all seems so normal n bored...
not even my fav animes can attract me...

In my mind now,
only content one question,
What do I want? seriously?

and lastly,
I think I am going back to pen and paper...
will still cont to post i guess?

2008-05-29T11:10:00.002+08:00

Someone told me:

Problems actually doesn't exist.
Is all because human always think too much that caused the problem to exist.
If you are able to allow yourself not to think so much,
the problem would gone by itself.

but am I able to do so?

2008-05-28T13:43:00.002+08:00

A small conversation~

someone: 你没人要。。。
me: wa... how can you so bad say until like that? sad leh...
someone:因为你名花有主
me: huh?~ who? how come i myself oso duno? o.o?
someone: me lor~
me: haha = =''' who say so?
someone: cos I say so...
me: funny hor~ no!
someone: orh...

2008-05-27T15:14:00.004+08:00

Move outside where you see the clear sky at night;
take a good look at it.
You may see the stars tonight.

From that far top,
image where you were, what you were...

To say,
You were nothing but just a small person that contributes to the world.
You would think of your own problems being so big that you nelegected the rest.

Using the image that I have portrayed into your mind just now.
What is the size of your problems compare to the world?
It's just as small as yourself,
you don't have the need to enlarge it yourself.

Try viewing it from far,
you may just see the way out,
or the solution to solve...

*sry for the bad english, hope you understand what I am trying to say*

The world is ever moving,
so don't expect it to stop for you...
You may stop your footsteps
but keep it in mind,
that the world is still moving...

2008-05-26T16:23:00.002+08:00

skipped school today, cos overslpt...
rather din wan to go to sch since i m late. =x!

feeling so weird~
somehow feeling things are not in placed,
something's always missing...

-thinking too much again, i guessed

2008-05-24T09:42:00.005+08:00

junli n shu rin~ =x! too bad junli turn her head away. lightnings quite dark lar shu rin! this is nice, ok!
our grp photo... haha... pei zhen and her balloon~ lols~
the last 2 on the train~

ok~
so ytd the party was abit bored... ended up having fun by our own... haha... =P
was sort of tired lar... cos it started quite late.. haha...
went home after a few performance and dinner...
dinner was quite ok~ xD!

Is fun being with your group of frends, without them, you will be bored~
QL joined us cos his grp isn't there... Still had lots of fun lar~
haha.. most of the time, bullying cheri lor~ lols...

The chat on the train, makes me think of our maturity level...
Felt that all of us have a huge gap of maturity... but still... differences or no difference we are still friends. The thinking might not be the same level but slowly they will...

Will I ever found someone with the same thinking or mindset of mine? I don't think so. =x! cos I never tot of opening it up to others.

2008-05-22T21:40:00.002+08:00

yeah! tml is back to school party!!!
xD! hope we have fun~

hmm... somehow it brought back memories... haha... borrowed sec sch uniform frm jovii to wear =x! mine gone to charity long ago le =x!!!

hope to get some photos tml... ^^

2008-05-17T19:15:00.003+08:00

ytd heard a msg from someone that he is coming back to the internet cos his internet connection was down...
i felt fear from it...
the trust, the past again, i guess...
the fear that i felt months ago was actually him?
i duno what to do... but just acted nth and go along with it...

the days, the songs that we both shared...
the songs are kept playing over my ears...
i see ur shawdows everywhere..

I though it was over,
everything was alright and in the pass already..
why would i feel this unrest right here?

thinking too much again?
I am not sure...
but I felt something's wrong with it...

I am feeling so lost.

Currently like a kid throwing my little temper bits here and there...

For gil's problem, it should come to an end.
today send him a msg, ask him to forget it, tink u just aren't the one for me... =x!
sounds mean and bad, but yar~ I've got no other choice...

neither m I ready for another relationship...
or can say my heart feels dead...

the timing for fomatting my com is at the right time i tink.
deleted everything from the past to let me start anew again.
the songs, the msgs, the chat logs, the backgrounds, the pictures, etc etc...
are all gone...

get back fromt hose that i wanted can already... ^^

2008-05-15T23:31:00.002+08:00

I found this quote quite interesting. Saw it in my resources when researching in school today...

If you want to truly understand something, try to change it.
- Kurt Lewin

Sort of bother me abit when read it... haha... was half aslp in class lar... so~ =x!
but still~ dun understand it... still in my unconsious mind =x! haha... brain-dead!

thx saki and hk for the advice ^^
huggs~

so, tml's gathering is being cancelled... m bored~
yet dead... = =

life's being bored... but i m tired, even with all the free time that i have slept is nv enuf...

2008-05-13T12:35:00.002+08:00

having a busy week but at least I would have a day off tml.
Due to the open house in school, tml's fyp is cancel.
Haven confirm on what to do tml.
Team mates said wanted to go sentosa and chill~

what's on my schedule are all dull and bored usual stuff... = =

Today's lesson is easy cos i studied everything before from another module, and answers are all available from the previous module.
the onli day i am so awake in school yet did this.

I am lost of words...
I am running away from my own problems,
I, run away cause I dun wan to face the consquences.
I already felt bad and guilty enough for rejecting that guy and causes him to what he is now.
A total different guy from what I heard from frend.
I wish I would help him, but if I help him, I would be cheating him instead.
I don't mind about myself...
I don't know what to do, should help or not?

Thoughts of it have been passing by my brain on consquences of helping him and not helping him. I m felt so small, not knowning what should I do.
*I shall just shut and ignore that* =x!

xl, wad u wan me to answer u? = ='''

2008-05-06T14:41:00.001+08:00

should i say or should i not say?
but i gt the answer for myself already...

ごめね。。。あいしてる

2008-04-29T15:09:00.002+08:00

yeah~ it's tuesday...
tml's fyp again... hmm... finishing soon le, but than started a new point of view.. so~ gt to busy again...

kinda stressed up lately... for duno wad reason...
than thurs is labour day... hmm public holiday... gd and bad... =x!

nxt tues start UT le... *sadden*
the relaxation day is gone. =x!
nid to start study liao =x

msn is down all the time, i felt so bored...
going out tonite...

oh yar... and today gt the ben & jerry free cone day =x!
duno whether wan to go get it anot... *thinking*
*craves abit* =x!

2008-04-28T10:45:00.002+08:00

duno wad i m up to today... felt so irritated!!!
i wan to shout!! AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
sian~

Never felt so controlled and irritated...
who are u to actually control my every movement and every thing that i m doing...

When it is time to listen and obey, i do.
but it is not neccessary for me to all the time to listen to you when u r nobody to control me!

I DO WADEVER I WAN!

jus wan to be a spolit brat for a day and dun care everyday can i?
being selfish and be myself.

reli felt so stressed~~~
*omg*

so dead in class... totally no mood on doing work...
can i skip sch? =x!

2008-04-25T14:40:00.005+08:00

this week many things had happen...
they are the past. back and stored into my memories...

I've jus realise the songs in the past were some no longer in my playlist cos of a reason...

The reason which causes bad memories...
may or may not, i will try to let it down slowly... dun wan it to make my life bitter and go as it is...

saki-dearie...
sry unable to accompany you during your birthday.
お誕生日おめでとうございます ^^

2 guys came into my life sometime ago during my sch holidays... after 3wks or more than that?, i felt like, i will push them away...
cos somewhere inside is waiting him...

2008-04-21T21:24:00.002+08:00

frend nids help on his fyp project for a poll...
so... help if u can =x

http://ah-gil.livejournal.com/

but requires u to sign up =x!!
so~
up to u bah.. hahaha... =x!
tml tml tml!!!! going to ALC! OMG~

sort of excited lar... and scare... cos they say quite hard as one of the gap is big.. omg~~~

should be fun lar~ hahaha...

2008-04-20T12:23:00.002+08:00

So~

Friday went out with baka and saki again~ xD!
hmm... had fun lar.. hahaha...

the nite's moon was nice with the surrounding clouds...
haha
so took a walk home while enjoying it...

on the way home actually saw someone taking a photo of it... omg, should have jus approach that guy for a photo of it..
cos tried taking photo of it but the clouds can't be seen lar... *sad*

wadever~ nvm lor~ at least i saw it... hahaha.. XD *happies for it currently*
Stupid baka, stop tempting me with ur lightning session = ='''
i gt saw a few oso k! bleh!

is sunday now again.. sad... have to go sch~ i wish the weekends were longer, pls~*~

ytd was a very dead day...
accompany pz darling go cut hair... than wait for her, i fall aslp on the sofa even after drinking mocha = ='''
than go cathay whr she works there... she chat with ppl, than i go to the sofa there and slp oso... =x!!
my physical body is there to accompany her but not my spirit cos is like flying in my lala land =x!! hahaa
sry~~~~

today more awake lar... haha =x!
had a nice long slp~

2008-04-17T20:31:00.002+08:00

Created a misunderstanding? =x
but dun felt like clearing up...
so jus leave it...

mp3 spoilt for a week plus le... so sian... = ='''
i wan to buy a new one soon i guess...
but still browsing thru which to buy... >.<

stupid stupid stupid!!!
so ex >.< *sad*

but still~ haix~ no choice...

i felt like mayb there is something bothering me but i still yet to find out myself...
i m not sure nor found out myself...

i feel like if one day i dun bully or make fun of my friends wad would they feel? =x!
i feeling too tired... resting for a day bah... enjoy ur day off frm letting me bully... hahaha...

2008-04-15T13:46:00.003+08:00

so bored in class....

tml going to fix my com. =x
hope i know my way there... the big question mark on how to go there =/

what's wrong with me nowadays?
I duno myself...
trying hard to figure it out...
I wan back my usual days...

I felt something's different frm me nowadays...
Alot have changed...
my character... it seems like totally different? as in one of my personalities...

i wan to gaze stars again jus like how saki accompany that nite...
whose free to accompany me? =/
but i duno go whr to gaze...
heard frm a frend to view frm the top of esplande...
feel like going there but i duno how to go to the top of esplande... *sad*

what am i aiming for?
どこいくの？
m so lost...
it feels like i m immune towards all types of feelings... it feels so weird

2008-04-10T20:06:00.002+08:00

why do you have to make a promise with me when you intend to break it and not fulfill it?

then why is it call a promise when u are unable to even fulfill or hold it?

u know i hate lies...

why do you always like to do wad i hate the most?

making me to hate you? is that wad u wanted?

if it is, jus say so... and i shall grant it...

2008-04-10T19:49:00.002+08:00

thx hk for the care oso... ^^

but i still started to shiver abit again...
it jus doesn't stop...
should start to ignore some stuff jus in case...

what's happening? i don't know...

2008-04-09T14:17:00.003+08:00

thx saki dearie~ for the care and concern ytd nite ^^
huggs~~ and kisses to u~ nxt time when we meet, k?
=D
yasoko!~

the nite was sweet with you beside me...
hugging you like a teddy bear, with someone as a partner...
nitemares are being chased away cause you are here...

fright not, cause i know someone is there with me, and i m not alone...

was tired not matter how much i sleep...
so i gave up sleeping most of the time... i m tired... but can't slp...
got nth to do... so stare in the space...

had a long good slp ytd nite but it seems not enuf...
wished for more... sweet dreams and nice sleep...

2008-04-07T21:05:00.002+08:00

i begin to shiver in fear...

wad's this that i m fearing, i duno...

i m scared, not sure wad to do...

it seems getting nearer that i begin to shiver even more than ever...

something's brewing... i not sure wad it is...

wishing for someone to jus gave me a hug,
and say "it's alright, there is nth to fear of"

2008-04-05T00:02:00.002+08:00

April's here...

hmm... long time le...
today went out with my buddies and dearie~

haha.. cut a new hairstyle but like no diff... =x!!

lols~

gazing stars with saki at vivo... while eating BnJ ice cream xD!!
my crave~ haha... =x!

had a nice and relaxing chat with her... spend like half an hour there chatting x=
ok lar~ is nice though it is bright there =x!

-slowly, step step... i m moving finally...-

2008-03-26T22:22:00.005+08:00

Promises

are meant to be fulfilled not to be broken...

Trust

reliance where by you would be truthful...

Believe

my acceptance of something...

and I know that these are the things that you would never been able to do nor fulfill...

2008-03-20T12:18:00.002+08:00

After a year plus, everything seems to run in a circle...

many events, happenings have occured...
i missed the old days...

Some things were lost, but in return i gained something...
things that I have learnt thru this year...

for him, i nelegected lots of things...
i missed my buddies~
now i felt like the time may be forwarded, it is like in the past whereby we all grown but the time that we were all tgt again is here...

baka n dearie~ はなーちゃんだいしき
ずっといっしょうに。。。

some things may not be back, but we are still connected tgt by a bonding that we used to have...

2008-03-19T21:22:00.002+08:00

jus fin watching 1 litre of tears...
it's so touching and nice...

the gal's so strong neh~
story happens so long ago lar...
when she die was like 1988... x.x

the purpose of living, the meaning of being alive, the proof of being alive...
亜矢すごういね。。。

2008-03-17T09:59:00.002+08:00

I guess, i should stop running away...
stop saying I don't know...
and face the truth..

but do i have the courage to do it?
I am not sure myself... somehow depends on whom and what situation i m facing...

がんばで、しじてる。。。

2008-03-16T08:58:00.002+08:00

Been working and 2 days din online tat much... =x!

haha... but last 2 days of work... gt my slacky post~
so free to sms lor!

no camera staring...
use their skincare =x!
hahaha... eh, their skincare is nice leh. =x! but no money to buy cos is too expensive!

today last day of work le... slacky post again...
so~~~
= ='''

ytd spend my whole day doing a sudoku. =x!
did went out with pz, den meet with saki~
had fun lar~ hahaha...
saki wear quite nice le, but she say normal wor = ='''
too bad, reach the JR matsuri that time just nice everything ended... =(( sadden

then went to watch a movie with pz, watched Horton...
we kept laughing...

had fun... reach home like 11+
haha... =D
drop dead once reach home =x!

off to work le~ cya~

2008-03-13T19:14:00.002+08:00

changed a temporary blogskin...

doesn't look so nice =(

will try to do a better job soon with that picture... =x!

heex... hope i find some nice pictures...

2008-03-12T22:10:00.002+08:00

eeyer!~~~~~~
i wan go to JR matsuri lar~~ T.T

sad sia~~~
on the 15 n 16!!!
got work on both days... poutx~~~~

saki-dearie say help me take photos if there are views that are worth to take?

sobby~~~
*wans to go*

guess i will go emo on both days of work...
dun tink can make it after work sia...

*pleading for photos* xD! thx if there is any kind souls would help me take photos~~~ xD!!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Went to watch Sky of Love le...
so nice~~ ahhaa...
ok, as expected i cried in there... not say keep crying lar... but jus cried... a few times i guess?
love that show lar... lols~ watched with cheri after revising jap tgt... she say a special lesson for u, eiga in nihongo. = ='''

is lols... cos duno how to link so mix mix abit lar~
haha...

2008-03-01T23:07:00.002+08:00

after leaving him for some time already...

i m getting used to myself also le...
busy with my work... haha... had fun la...
today oso tio shoot by promoter lor... everytime the same de leh... = ='''
like nv change de!!!!
zzzz....

fine lor~ i oso shoot him... wahahha,... say he short then went to hide inside the water pipes cupboard. lOL~ senior say him, inside no priest leh, go in no use. u can't do ur confession inside...
and oso keep saying his sales... he not there gt customer, he there, slap flys! hahaha... din do any sales at all... =x!!

stupid la~ now my name gt another nick name le = ='''
and stupid enuf to actually go answer them when they call it!!! zzzzzz.... *slaps myself*

work back the same place, few ppl recongise me onli... haha... not bad le la... =x
talk to them... today alone as temp staff for morning nia... like so poor thing. T.T
but chat alot with those promoters, permanent staff... haha...

Life's getting different without you by my side...
Though still trying to adapt but I am getting to it I guess...
Didn't tink of you that much anymore...
Didn't felt the pain that I used to feel when you left me...

These 2 songs that I played through my blog, are the songs that comforted me through...
and I love them, cause their meanings frm the lycris are meaningful...

Hope to have fun more when working... haha... but my legs are killing me.. cause they keep aching when walk = ='''
*massaging own legs*

Currently learning how to face you like a normal frend... I know I can do it~ =D!

2008-02-28T18:00:00.004+08:00

Changin' My Life
~Eternal Snow

How long has it been since I fell in love with you?
My feelings only increase
Will you notice them
Even though I've never once put them into words?

Like the snow, they just
Quietly keep accumulating

Hold me tight- if this is how it feels
I didn't want to know
What it was like to be in love with someone
I love you- my tears won't stop
And so I wish
That I had never met you

How long will I be thinking of you?
My sighs fogged up the window glass

Can a candle flame
Still melt my trembling heart?

Hold me tight, tight enough to break me
So that even in an icy wind or a blizzard
I won't feel cold
I miss you- every time I think of you
Tonight, too, I hold
This half-finished muffler, all alone

If there was an eternally falling snow
Could it hide my feelings for you?

Hold me tight- if this is how it feels
I didn't want to know
What it was like to be in love with someone
I love you- the feeling wells up in my chest
I want to shout to the wintery sky
"I want to see you right now"

2008-02-25T22:37:00.002+08:00

Guild Outing Notice:

26 Feburary 2008
Meeting point at orchard mrt station, 6pm
Going Seoul garden at Taka
Total currently 9ppl going.

yeah~ finally the guild outing is being organised and ppl can go le... haha...
hope to have fun =D!

2008-02-22T13:48:00.002+08:00

By: Changing My Life
~Myself~

doushite doushite suki nan darou
konna ni namida afureteru
ano koro ha ushinau mono ga oosukite nani mo utaenakatta
sukoshi hanareta basho soko ga watashi no ibasho datta
kimi no hitomi no oku ni ano hi samishisa wo mitsuketa
futari niteru no kana?
kitsukeba itsu mo tonari ni ite kureta
doushite konna ni suki nan darou
kimi no koe kanshii hodo hibiiteru yo
ima made nani ga sasae datta ka
tooku hanarete wakatta yo
nakinagara sagashi tsuduketa maigo no kodomo no you ni
kedo soko ni ha eien nante aru wake nakute
"dare ni mo shinjinakereba iin da yo" tsubuyaita ne
futari niteru no kana?
ano toki kimi wo mamoru to kimeta no ni
doushite konna ni suki nan darou
toosugite chikasugite todokanai yo
"wasureyou" tte omoeba omou hodo
kimi ga ookiku natteku yo
doushite konna ni suki nan darou
kimi no koe kanshii hodo hibiiteru yo
ima made nani ga sasae datta ka
tooku hanarete wakatta yo
doushite konna ni suki nan darou
kantan sugite kotae ni naranai

http://www.animelyrics.com/anime/fullmoon/myself.htm

2008-02-15T15:17:00.001+08:00

黄湘怡分手第七天
词曲：黄湘怡
很想知道你最近过得怎样
是否还像以往不多话
很想拨通电话问你好吗？
却怕听你声音会更伤
分手第7天
就像永远
对你的思念一天加多一点
分手第7天
就像永远
每当闭上双眼
你就在我眼前你就在眼前
很想握你的手
重新来过
却知不可能的事太多
分手有时不是为了谁错
只能默默接受着心痛

2008-02-01T18:56:00.000+08:00

ytd consider my last day of sch?
hahaha...
it was fun la... but was like half-handicapped the whole day...

morning went to sch without my handphone...
so i went back home after school to take my handphone
den go out to meet saki-dearie~
after meeting den onli i realise i forget to bring out my wallet = ='''
was like... din know what I am doing the whole day la~ = ='

jus recovered from my gastric...
no cold, fried, oily food... so was like... nth much i would eat oso... = ='

din know wat to do...
went to arcade and play with saki a game that is quite cute la... somehow shooting but.. still gt compartibility de! hahahaha... funny la~ but was fun =D!

ty saki~

It's the beginning of a new mth Feb... which sort of the month with I like and dun like? haha... mayb, mayb not... jus treat it as nth and it will pass soon...

I am tinking far ahead.... how would i be in 1yrs time? 2 yrs time? soon is yr3 for me this april... I felt fear in me to face this year 3 of myself... I forsee 'lost' at the end of 2009 January for me... cos I didn't know where to go... Didn't know what to do... Didn't know what can be done...

Today I am actually feeling like an empty shell... duno what I am doing all along... Not knowing what's lying ahead of me.

I know something's clear in my mind, which is I am running away from something... that actually causes this... Jus can't get it through... But I am happy though I guess... I am unable to define my own feelings now... Just leave it be~

*most beautiful thing is to see ur loved ones happy~

2008-01-29T20:41:00.001+08:00

school's coming to the end... end of yr2...

feels like i m so old le... kind of scared? cos is the last yr in my 10s~ = ='''
haixxx~ feels so old =x!

duno leh~~
wad have i been doing i oso duno... i onli know have been skipping lots of classes...
i actually skipped my last 3 UTs. = ='''

today...
sudden fall sick... having high fever lor...
so went home half way... =x! den skipped my ut = ='''
sian~~~

hahaha... now feeling better le, so came here and blogged...
but oso duno why i m blogging here... cos nth much to say bahx...

In school have been keep playing big 2 or mahjong... lols!! keep asking ppl to join in and play... cos all nid 4 ppl, hard to get... lols~ at www.viwawa.com = ='''
today play the whole morning during class... laughing at there by ourselves... even though the faci know oso din reli care la~ =x!!

Been listening to this song... somehow somehow... it caughts something inside me bahx... i dun understand oso... haha... jus leave it bahx... and is a nice song =D

你那么爱她

直到爱消失你才懂得
去珍惜身边每个每好风景
只是他早已离去
直到你相逢
他早已经不在对你留恋
最后的你
开始了一段挣扎
你那么爱他
为什么不把他留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱他
这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱他
为什么不把他留下
是不是你有深爱的两个他
所以你不想再让自己无法自拔
直到爱消失你才懂得
去珍惜身边每个每好风景
只是他早已离去
直到你相逢
他早已经不在对你留恋
最后的你
开始了一段挣扎`````哦``````
你那么爱他
为什么不把他留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱他
这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱他
为什么不把他留下
是不是你有深爱的两个他
所以你不想再让自己无法自拔
哦~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2008-01-17T15:10:00.000+08:00

I ~~should~~ must stop looking at those memories le...
throw those memories away...

*promise myself*

2008-01-16T15:31:00.000+08:00

what's love?
i m tinking about it again...

there is no rite or wrong in love...
each and everyone of us have the choice.
why is there break and being tgt?
break cos you have met someone better or u demanded too much from ur partner...
being tgt cos you feel that there is some chemistry going on in btw both of u...

If both parties, were to be tgt, they can actually be tgt forever...

BUT...

it all depends on both of them...
why? cos love requires 2 to be tgt... and it requires ur hard work to enjoy the sweetness of love...

Breaking up to me is the loss of determination to work hard to be together. The tiredness, the friction that causes over time...
It is all causes by the 2 of them, the solution is within themselves and it all depends on them whether to open the solution and calm down and solve it...
breaking up would also be equal to commit suicide in human sense whereby, it is the shortest way to cure all the pain, all the troubles.

is there ever reli have a true real love... whereby 2 of us would love each other no matter what and deep... unrootable from any troubles... from any disaster...?

I don't know...

2008-01-11T16:37:00.000+08:00

long time din post le~~~~~~~
hahaha...
hmm...i finally buy the bunny bag i wanted for sooooooooo long... = ='''and is PINK!!!! the colour pink is out le~ xD
cos went shopping for cny clothes... haha...
get a few clothes... hmm...
first day, formal again~
2nd day, casual; cos i dun wan get heatstroke =x!!!
and my bunny bag would follow me everywhere for cny bahxx...
haha...
ytd jus buy it de...
cos i skipped class for ytd and today? o.o?
heex... =x!!

when i bring the bag home, mum starts to nag...
cos say, why u buy a bag that so heavy? = ='''
*ok, is heavy cos of the stuffing inside the ears, head, leggs*
aiya~ cute mahxx... xD!
then she reply me, u buy that bunny no eyes, no mouth, no nose de. = =!!!!
i fix it lorxx... anyway i oso wan decorate it =(

B4 deco it looks like this~ (=.=)''' the bunny with no mouth, no eyes, no nose which my mum says... zzzzzzz....

2008-01-04T09:27:00.000+08:00

my com is fixed...
lucky done before sch's reopen...
is a new beginning of the year day 4th...
and sch's reopening soon which makes me sounds so half dead...

duno how's my life been actually moving so fast...
my 3wks holidays... duno what i have been reli doing and wat i have achieve...

hmm... the last 4wks for my yr2, should reli enjoy before FYP starts...
first day of sch i have UT? = ='''
*hate it*
haven study... lols~

hope everybody have fun during the holidays...
is a new life,
a new beginning for me i guess...
most of the buddies i see, have moved on and live in a better life...
time for me to start?

ytd give a frend nag like hell... = ='''
keep asking me to study when i m slacking all day long...
say ur salary forever stay at 1k if u work under dipolma... blah blah blah....
the rest dropped into the dustbin beside le... =x

Chiong FYP with my frend bahxx... study hard is for this years and nxt yr...
hope to get in a uni....

2007-12-21T08:44:00.000+08:00

my com gt virus and i guess i wun be on9 these few days.
get me through sms, if i m required. =(

2007-12-17T21:32:00.000+08:00

我的光，
照亮我的身命。
那道彩虹在哪里？
彩虹会不会有个尾段？
配不上你的美，
不过我们有一个秘密。
是一个不能说的秘密。。。
只有你和我知。。。

在彩虹低下，
把秘密收藏，
把秘密告知给对方。

唯一没人知的时刻和诗。。。

那套时光，我们的秘密，
都会留在我的心低。
不管他能不能留在我们的生上一辈子，
我一直都会珍惜着圣神的一刻。。。

--花

2007-11-26T11:23:00.000+08:00

I prefer the white one on top.

This the overall look after all those zoom in pics. ^^ nice isn't it?

The white piano.

The lightings in orchard

My dad and me~

hmm...
18th birthday is today.
thx to all who greet me ^^
let's see if i remember all.
Joy, Weak, Dare, Fiora, Cheri, Chole, Christina, Xiu rong, Shu rin, Nicky, Jie, Jovii, Ben, Benjamin, saki, moon and ama.haha...
hmm... thx so much. though not really feeling well cause of tummy ache.
heex... jovii bought me a chocolate fondue thingy. lolx~ loves choco~ haha..
so went for dinner at nite. ^^ my parents fetch me home from sch ytd. so nice~ haha... so went orchard den had dinner, and some window shopping. came across this hotel or shopping centre, that had these art gallery so nice... ahaha... onli noe how to appreciate the masks that they put up. anyway they are the main art pieces for the gallery. They had a nice white piano at there. ^^

had a nice day i guess, with my parents at least. presents arhx, ahahha, see if i wan to put pictures of them. XP

2007-11-22T19:00:00.000+08:00

be wary of the ones near you,
things might not happen the way you expected
humans are not predictable
they might love you this moment
hate you another
so what am I inside you?

I don't know,
but I choose to trust you
hoping nothing would comes in between
hoping nothing would happen
and everything would remain as how we are like now.
friends forever

how long is forever?
I can't say,
if forever is stated to be 999years
then let it be 1000years for our friendship.

2007-11-19T14:06:00.000+08:00

Busy weekend...
wans a break soon.. ^^
sat have the YOG.
went to see, it was a total failure.

sunday the Eco-pinic, was like ???
messy... weird,... things aren't in the control.
jus go haywire...
go as it is bahx...

have lots of goodies~
bring home, my mum there picking the stuffs she wans and pack all up liao. lolx~
dun wan de, plan to give who who who... lolx~

slp early, have fun.

2007-11-15T12:21:00.000+08:00

Anime from: Hikaru No Go
*Get Over* By: Dream

Kimi ga
Ima boku wo sasaete, boku ga ima kimi wo sasaeru
Dakara mayoi nagara mo tomo ni ikiteikouyo, mirai e to

Nakama to tawamure sorenaride itemo
Mono tarinasa wo kanjite shimau
Sameta me de mirarete
Kawaita jidai no kaze ni fukareteiru

Akiramekireru mono naraba, saicho kara kyoumi motanai
Wasurerareru mono nara, hitsuyousa wo kanjinai kara
Fuan na kokoro to yuuki ga senaka awase ni naatteiru
Dakedo ima nara yume wo kono te de kanaete miseru yo

Kizutsuite kowaresouna hi mo, namida shite komaraseru hi
Mo arukeredo
Bokura wa sore wo koete ikunda, dare yori
Ue wo mezashite

Tanoshii koto dake, erande ikite mo
Sono saki ni wa nanimo mienakute
Dakara donna koto mo
Genjitsu kara nigenaide uketomeru yo

Daiji na mono ga aru naraba, mamorinuite miseru kara
Nakushitakunai mono ni, jibun no subete wo kakeru yo
Kinou ja nai kara toki ni kizutsuke, kizutsuiteiku
Dakedo ima nara sukoshi jishin wo motte arukeru yo

Kodoku da to kanjiru hi demo mijime da to kanjiru hi sae
Aru keredo
Bokutachi wa kitto hitori ja nai to omou yo
Kimi ga iru

Naze hito wa toki ni ayamachi wo...
Koukai wo shite mo shikirezu...
Naze hito wa itsumo, soredemo to koeteikou to suru?

Kimi ga ima boku wo sasaete, boku ga ima kimi mo sasameru
Dakara mayoi nagara mo tomo ni ikiteikouyo, mirai e to
Kitzutsuite koware souna hi mo, namida shite komaraseru hi mo arukeredo
Bokura ha(wa) sore wo koete ikunda, dare yori ue wo mezashite

~End~

*Fantasy* By Nana Katase
mune no kodou atsuku yurugasu
shigeki motomete aruku My heart
jikan dake ga sugiru mainichi ja henka wa nai woo

tomaranai shinjitai susumitai
jibun no chikara tamesu My life
demo hayaaruki shita tte miotosu dake sou kakujitsu ni

baby for you ashita wa ashita no kaze ga fuku
sore demo ima kono shunkan o tsuyoku ikitai

It's FANTASY samayotta to shite mo
mita koto nai sekai demo
nani yori mo jibun o shinjitachimukaou
It's DESTINY donna basho ni ite mo
tsutsumu sora wa hitotsu dakara
nee motto tsubasa hirogete habatakeru yo ne

nagare no mama ni susundeku
jibun rashisa mitsumete My style
sou omou ga mama ni kanjita mama kokoro yudane

baby to smile fukanou o kanou ni kaete yuku yo
ano koro egaite ita yume to onaji kimochi de

It's FANTASY asu sae mienai
utsuriyuku toki no naka demo
dare yori mo jibun o tsuyoku machitsuzuke
It's DESTINY matte ita tte konai
arukidasou kowagarazuni
sou kitto hitomi aketara kanaerareru yo

It's FANTASY samayotta to shite mo
mita koto nai sekai demo
nani yori mo jibun o shinjitachimukaou
It's DESTINY donna basho ni ite mo
tsutsumu sora wa hitotsu dakara
nee motto tsubasa hirogete habatakeru yo ne

infinity world doko made mo tsuzuku michi hatenaku
make progress
subete hitotsu ni tsunagatte iku kara
sou motto hitomi aketara kanaerareru yo

~End~

2007-11-15T11:09:00.000+08:00

was busy for the past few days....
finally gt a time to relax today...
hahaha...
hmm... sunday is the event le...
and is the last time.. yeah?
i not sure...
hahhahaa... enjoy my day bahxx...
hmm~

stuff have been getting down lately...
and i tink nid some air space to breath at times...
my PP getting due soon... and is killing me..
report not yet finish. rejected kind of alot of times...
seeing classmates alot finished and approved...
haixx~ *sighed* they all frust about the poster instead le..
me still at the report =.='''

event is killing me oso? but kind of excited...
haha... saturday!~ soon~
YOG activities crush with Eco-pinic and my relative wedding dinner?
haha... end up chose my relative wedding dinner.
den maybe after that find classmates to help them out for YOG stuff...
=x~ heex... somerset... woo~ count the signatures... *plz that we gt 1m of signatures*

haha... den go shopping!~ long time didn't go shopping le... kind of lost touch on the fashion now... but oso can see la... hahhaaha...

gt addictied to maple somehow again le? chionging storage first while chionging my bandit with my frend playing first. hahhaa... =s

wans, chief bandit! either i kop char from another frend lorx... hahaha... that one duno if can play anot... *wans*
omg~

2007-11-11T20:55:00.000+08:00

so fast 1wk holiday ends le...

hmm... lately phone have been giving me problems...
haixxx....

nvm.. forget about that.
finally rushed out my PP report today.
wonder if it would be accepted.
left not much days.

this coming week i can forsee that it would be a busy one.
cos, monday gt meeting
tuesday gt UT, gt briefing for helpers
wedesday gt dry-run
thurday and friday would need to settle everything
but i guess something would pop up last mintue for sure.

this holiday,
shortly 1 week,
happens alot of stuff.
currently re-watching an anime i kinda like alot.
Hikaru no go. hahaha... like the board game but dun understand a thing.
went to study before but.... still very lousy at it.
hmm... the songs for it were nice oso...
and applies to a situation sometime back that happen...

Get Over is the song that running through my mind...
wanting to show someone that for what i m doing. that's all.
lycris of it might get it sometime soon and post it here bahxx...
^^

ja ne~
Hana-Chan loves~

2007-11-03T09:42:00.000+08:00

ytd kind of bz la...
wore formal to sch was kind of fun...
then UT
I can't finish nia... sian la...
read too slow le...

then have to give out flyers lorxx...
took the t-shirt XS le... still very big size =.='''
haha... does some cheating...
cos they were like asking us to take the amount of flyers...
then I only took a few pieces... Kind of dun wan to give out la...

then went to give out with some other members...
end up I oso give out sort of more than them?
cos I give finish first... Then help them to give out...
After that find HK lorxx...
his friends oso ask me to help him give out... lolx...
take abit oso =D
haha... then give out finish le, den go back there and sit down smsing saki~

went to marina square pizza hut to celebrate xy's birthday...
had some fun la...
then went to play HOTD4
err... hand kind of injured...
gun faulty oso... lolx... sometimes can shoot sometimes cannot shoot de...

then went home... drop dead on the bed liao...
hahaha..

2007-11-01T12:54:00.000+08:00

Novermber....
pending for something~~~
HOLIDAYS~!!!
omg~
i wan it now~ T.T~

i wan to go play la....
tink cannot go japan liao...
hmmm...
the tiff with cheri getting serious and out of hand liao...
dun wan to do anything le...
trying to ignore her hard!!!
another matter is that not enuf $_$
den forget it lorxx...
it's not like I can't go on other timing...
hahaha...

hmm....
eco-pinic is getting confusing....
awhile this awhile that... but i can understand la...
cos faci gt say b4, beware of changes during the last mintue de... hahhahaha....

YOG, doing the signtures for cheri lorx...
her points sia... I dun understand why I am doing for her?
nvm~ forget it...
ren ren ren ren....
1 more day onli... den I would have my holidays den I can rest and dun see her bahxx...

nid some cooling time...

2007-10-31T08:37:00.000+08:00

Loving my new blogskin so much nia~
hahaha... pinkish~ =X!

holidays are finally coming...
lately being troubled by someone?
hmm... jus wan her to learn how to control her temper nia...
but it always seems to fail...
somehow... taking me for granted liao....

she doing her CE points for getting signtures nid 1000...
hmm... help her out abit bahxx....
thurs bring to the audition for her...

feel like leaving her alone and jus ignore her nia...
but the frendship that cost 6years...
I duno? or m i jus pressing my views on her?
I m not sure myself.

maple life...
have been walking here and there...
now 4th job coming out le...
tink i wan to chiong over my holidays le...
=X!! but now currently nids meso to buy a new weapon!!!
or either I have to hunt lorxx... but I heard nid at least 1 wk to hunt?
somemore the place is always crowded with people whom are lvl higher den me de....
sob~ i wan~ blue marine~ T.T

jia you bahxx~ I will train till 110 then go find or 105... gd luk...

2007-10-30T08:42:00.000+08:00

tired....
holiday holiday holiday...
i feel like running away from this world and travel....
i wan to rest and be alone...
feel like wan to be alone and tink of all those past stuff and disolve it
and keep it as a memories...
is so hard for me to cope

so hard to calm myself down...
but still have to make and force it down...
taking in bit by bit...
but the mood oso sunken more and more...
till it's unable to dissolve and blow all the stuff up...
but currently i m still able to calm myself down though my mood sunken alot already...

still trying my best to forget the past...

2007-10-29T08:46:00.000+08:00

I read this mail in the morning... Find it quite interesting and meaningful... so I decided to post it out here...

A friend of mine opened his wife ' s underwear drawer and picked up a silk paper wrapped package: 'This, - he said - isn ' t any ordinary package.'
He unwrapped the box and stared at both the silk paper and the box.
'She got this the first time we went to New York , 8 or 9 years ago.
She has never put it on, was saving it for a special occasion.
Well, I guess this is it. He got near the bed and placed the gift box next to the other clothing he was taking to the funeral house, his wife had just died.
He turned to me and said: 'Never save something for a special occasion.
Every day in your life is a special occasion'.
I still think those words changed my life.
Now I read more and clean less.
I sit on the porch without worrying about anything.
I spend more time with my family, and less at work.
I understood that life should be a source of experience to be lived up to, not survived through.
I no longer keep anything.
I use crystal glasses every day...
I ' ll wear new clothes to go to the superma rket, if I feel like it.
I don ' t save my special perfume for special occasions ; I use it whenever I want to.
The words 'Someday...' and 'One Day...' are fading away from my dictionary.
If it ' s worth seeing, listening or doing, I want to see, listen or do it now.
I don ' t know what my friend ' s wife would have done if she knew she wouldn ' t be there the next mo rning, this nobody can tell.
I think she might have called her relatives and closest friends.
She might call old friends to make peace over past quarrels.
I ' d like to think she would go out for Chinese, her favorite food.
It ' s these small things that I would regret not doing, if I knew my time had come.
I would regret it, because I would no longer see the friends I would meet, letters... that I wanted to write 'One of these days'.
I would regret and feel sad, because I didn ' t say to my brother and sisters, son and daughters, not times enough at least, how much I love them.
Now, I try not to delay, postpone or keep anything that could bring laughter and joy into our lives..
And, on each morning, I say to myself that this could be a special day..
Each day, each hour, each minute, is special.
If you got this, it ' s because someone cares for you and because, probably, there ' s someone you care about.
If you ' re too busy to send this out to other people and you say to yourself that you will send it 'One of these days' , remember that 'One day' is far away... or might never come... from here onwards, I think there is no need to read.
not what i believe in and not what i want to tell you.
No matter if you ' re superstitious or not, spend some time reading it.
It holds a useful message for the soul.

2007-10-27T18:22:00.000+08:00

Long time~ didn't blog le...

someone keep telling me to update... =.='''
orhxx~

now update lorxx... let u read and read and read...
wahahhaa...

hmm...
school's doing quite ok le...
kind of get used to the life now...
but I guess soon we have to change class again~ Nooooo~~~
Should enjoy classes more now...
haha...

tinking if wan to go jap with the sch... then can enjoy homestay... XPPP
then oso decide if wan to extend our stay there lorxx... den no nid to go 2 times oso mahxx...
heex...

Friday's class seems to be having much more fun after I have changed my group... Tink jus dun like the way how they do their stuff bahxx...
not used to it...

Btw just changed the blogskin in class during 3rd meeting ytd... hahhaa... too bored until wan to sleep le...
woo... and noe something interesting ytd oso cos someone spam my msn... hahha...

it seems so long before I had so much fun le...
and I miss playing with saki during fridays after school!!!!
awww~~~~~ nid to bear with one more friday den can meet her again? I guess so...

hmm... ytd play in sch la... wan to scare shu rin... end up she tot i run to play catch with her =.='''
tsk tsk~ wrong information, mei you mo qi... or I laugh too loud? =X!
Thursday joke was from the faci... I gt UT mahxx... Then I told him I have UT, then he ask me at where? I said E2. He told me, good luck on running there! =.=''' cos current position of my class was W6... Lol~ then start class late somemore at about 2.30.... but he end class early at about 3.30 lorxx... poutx~
Wedesday joke was er... the class couple la! I didn't know until that day... dotz! cos the group was spliting mahxx... then my team member told me that the guy sure go the other group de... Then I go ask why norx... he told me cos his gal at there mahxx... i went huh??? o.O? then he told me they couple mahxx... I go Oh! now den i noe nia... =.=''' sry boss... =X!
Tuesday arhx... got nth much on bahxx... sociology... study theory theory... dotZ~
Monday.... lolx~ whole class wear black!~ haha... purposely want to disturb the faci de... who knows... so qiao, faci oso wear black... dang~ then gt another guy whom we didn't notice him cos didn't noe his msn, he wear black oso... hahaha... everybody like o.O phwee~ Faci still ask we all say beforehand is it? then they all act blur... say no arhx.... EH, how come whole class wear black de... (can expect who say la... wei lun lorx) and he wear his so-called black colour not black de lorx... more like grey colour instead.... hahahha.... den everybody say him. odd de u!

This monday, everybody shall wear white... see how's the teacher reaction... LOl~ Hope really everybody would wear white... even though the class kind of busy with the YOG and kind of shattered liao... quarrels here and there... But class should still have class fun bahxx... Put projects aside... ^^

HIMuBaka~ haha.... nvm if u dun get the hints nehx~ is all over... arigatou~ lalalala....
Saki~ hope to see you soon orhxx~~~ though every sat want to meet you end up oso mei you yuan fen de... sometime we sure will be able to meet bahxx...

Life should change better than ever... Not to stay in the saddness... ^^ gabatte~ ne?

2007-10-18T09:02:00.000+08:00

Ai Otsuka - Kingyo Hanabi (english)
LyricsGoldfish fireworks

The goldfish that swims my heart is in love
Making these feelings grow stronger
Turning red, i knew nothing would come of feeling this way
But still i wished to stay with you.
The scent of summer in the rain
The goldfish fireworks trickling down
I was blinded by the lightYour kind face flashed for but one moment. *1
I hope that the goldfish swimming my heart
Is not engulfed in ugliness
Its life lasts just one summer *2
Even if its just for a little while,
I wished for your happiness.
The scent of summer, enveloped in the night
The goldfish fireworks trickling down
No words do it justice
Your kind faced flashed for but one moment.
The scent of summer in the rain...
~End~
金魚花火歌词-大塚愛(Otsuka Ai)
心に泳ぐ金鱼は恋し想いを募らせて
真っ赤に染まり実らぬ想いを知りながら
それでもそばにいたいと愿ったの
夏の匂い雨の中で
ぽたぽたおちる金鱼花火
光で目がくらんで
一瞬うつるはあなたの优颜
心に泳ぐ金鱼は丑さで包まれぬよう
この夏だけの命と决めて少しの时间だけでも
あなたの幸せを愿ったの
夏の匂い夜が包んで
ぽたぽたおちる金鱼花火
どんな言叶にもできない
一瞬うつるのあなたの优颜
夏の匂い雨の中で.....

~おわり~
Though our relationship had die off, I would always remember you...

2007-10-14T18:36:00.000+08:00

friday...
had alot of fun...
end school about 3.10pm den i rush home to change plus bathe den went to meet saki...
ask her to go slowly... cos rush to atsuki to get something...
hahaha...
den after that meet her... jus she reach the train station, I reach the train station and oso gt the thing for her le... heex...
give it to her, and say onli can look at home... haha... i tot when she open the bag, she would know wat is it le worxx... didn't realise she didn't noe. =X...
then met my ex-classmate at citylink... and train station... said hi, and she was like kidda shocked on asking I didn't know you like this type of fashion... lolx~ saki was laughing there oso... den i was hugging neko-chan... hahaha... den told her, cos sch was sch and outside was outside? hahaha... have different type of fashion for it... ^^ she oso say neko-chan cute... heex...

duno wat saki was laughing at there for wat? den nvm lorxx....
went to waruka or wakaru? aiya forget le... ahahha... went there to eat. at first can't fin de... end up eat slowly as talking to saki, still fin it le... lolx~ sit there awhile and chat abit... when want to pay the bill that time, sort of fighting for the bill la... hahah... saki looks scary on fighting for the bill... =X! cos she say feels bad on being late + the present I gave her. cos she said sure very ex de... but it actually wasn't reli ex la...

then the time is almost up for movie le... then jus pay the bill and went to find the ladies... walk until the 3rd toliet den found one that no nid to q! hahaha... the ticket looks interesting... lolx~ special nia.. haha...

In the cinema, at times talk to each other... hahha... cos was kind of scared when the zombiees just pop up like tat... strangle neko-chan a few times.... and used neko-chan to block the screen most of the time? =X hahaha... saki oso worxx... but she use bag... the surface area bigger than the neko's head!

After movie she still wan to play HOD4. I was already shivering in fear? =X! hahaha.... =X! then play with her 1 round onli... cos the time is quite late le... previously saw a lady play was like so pro lorxx... lolx... this time i die faster... =X! heex... didn't look out properly...

then went home quite late oso la... hahhaa.... Lucky saki likes that present nehxx....

Then on sat... was boredd... so wanted to go out shopping... den hk msg me to go out... so went out with him... reach late, den he have an appointment to cut hair, so went to pei him. He told me it would fin in 1hr. I already wan to faint le... End up I waited there for 3hrs?! KILL HIMU!
And i dun get to shop cos is like 7. =.=''' he nids to meet someone else to play pool at 7? then nvm lorxx... he treat me dinner at cosafe~ haha... met yukino~ KAWAII~ hahaha... she wear her waloli for work... chop himu about $20+ then go home liao...
Kick him alot of times when eating... hahaha...den wan to poke him along the way den he almost fall down... =X! pull him back abit norxx... lolx~

2007-10-07T18:16:00.000+08:00

answering a question that saki-dearie ask me on friday...

hmm...
how's in sch? bad~
monday's faci dun like me. or can say kind of bias.
tuesday's faci still ok. but lessons are hard
wedesday's faci still ok, but give high expectations. kind of bias too.
monday to wedesday in a class 1. have a sense that they dun like me le...
thursday's faci quite nice. still ok with him
thursday's another class 2. classmates are all year 3, quite friendly.
friday's faci nice person, the faci that teach me b4.
friday's is oso another class 3. classmates can say is a bad experience?
kidda feel a few stabs from them on last friday.

soon i guess, monday to wed's class would also start stabbing le...
kind of making me sad la...
but, 4 days in school that causes unhappiness... hmm... wat can i say? stay low profile as much as possible bahxx... but the lower-profile i go, the more things i feel scary about those classmates...
know a few classmates quite going along with me on class 1... tink i would choose to leave them alone, jus in case they caught in the mind-games with me...
friday's class the most scary to me de... even though going on 1 day, but... stabs are still being received. there are a few people same class frm class 1 with me on class 3... but never suspect them because they don't know me. I onli suspect people from my own grp for class 3... cos they are the ones that I work with for that day...

hoping this semster to be gone faster so that i can change class soon... but, i still have 13weeks with them... class 1 have to spend 39days? class 2 and 3 13 days each... but is still quite long when added them together?

but i noe 1 thing for sure... saki-dearie cheer me up that evening ^^
私すき妃恋人！でも私日本語がへたな。。。これからがんばる、そしてだじょぶ。私一人でじゃな、そうほんとにだじょぶ。

and my hand is alright le ^^

2007-10-06T19:40:00.000+08:00

Ytd after school, rushed home and went to meet saki-dearie~
hahaha... had alot of fun... ^^ dranks starbucks~ =P! hehe... ty dearie for the treat orhx~
hehehe... the game was fun la... but abit scary... was shaking abit while playing =X! heex...
Even though is just 2hrs+, but I guess at least we had alot of fun? was laughing on the way back... cos too blur to guess wat saki-dearie was hinting... the most funny guess is... er... weather? hahaha.... i guess weather when she is pointing herself... =X

today... was kidda of bad la... my hand gt fractual or twisted i duno la... but jus that the side there pain, nid to rub or push the bone or nerves back norxx... going to see doc ltr to push it... hope it is not too pain... zzzz....
at nite now, den realise that my other hand oso starting to ache abit le... tink ltr better ask the doc to push both of my hands. =X! T.T!

Maple, just done dling all the stuffs. =.=''' the files alot of them corrupted de... lol~ end up dl the full version for 2hrs+++ den can play... haixxx... =X! lvl101! hahaha... but now lazy to play le... weak keep saying wan to go guild quest, kill captian latanika, barlog(the one when we say much much much earlier when I was lvl 80?) hahaa, then duno le... forget liao... =X

heex... have fun~

2007-10-03T20:24:00.000+08:00

sooo long never blog le...

but the truth is I dun wish to blog only... haha... even thought I have the time to type is out, just that dun feel like want to blog it out... I don't why...

Just back to pencil and paper and my old diary book that I left it to rot for about 1 year le...
Went back to view it... read and read... haha... enter most of the entries there... Basically used that for about 6years? or more? I don't know... But I know that even thought no matter how long, the book still have not finish... haha... cos I am just too lazy or too busy to write it..

I didn't realise I have keeping a habit for so long? Just that after enter RP, change a new type of keeping my diary which is blogging? haha...

Classes are dead... I sense danger already, though is only 2 and a half week? Can sense that today's faci didn't like me... I have already been isolated from my classmates liao... Mind did says dun care about them, you are only in this class for 3 days! But 3 days is still alot to me... At least it covered the majority of my days in school~? Heart feels care about their reactions... haixx.... never mind bahxx...

Things are getting on a rough patch now... I just hope at times where I can find a hole and hide myself in there... I only see Cs in my grades... Only the faci knew me gave me B. so overall er... haixxx...

Some of the modules did quite hard, though that I would get at least an B but I got an C instead... No matter how much I try... Seems like I have to try harder...

Kidda of feel sad today... Think is because of the lesson bahxx... Faci ask us to do personality test and show her our percentages of our personality...
I see the results... erm... bad...

As shown: I'm" a O20-C17-E9-A32-N94 Big Five!!

I don't know what to say on seeing that result... It just shows that I didn't change after sooo long even though many people told me that I have changed... hmm... shows me they lie?
I don't know? or is just that the side that I show them is the total opp way...
guess the results shows somehow near the "real" me?

I not sure...

Guess I would require to see you another few times before everthing really ended bahxx....
after that I would just quit the IG cos CE points are max after that... 18Nov? soon bahxx... very near...

and sch having the hey gogerous and beauty or wat de la... coming on friday...

2007-09-24T20:04:00.000+08:00

well... it's been sooo long sinced I've blog...
hmm..

for the first week of school... is kidda of bad for me?
I went to check my grades just now...
C C B C, 1 more not out yet...
haixxx... tot I have done quite well nia... cos I tried my best to speak out liao worx... I chiong all the ppt nia... and give me C!
Then heard from my team mates say she got B... and the comments was totally different wor?
faci tell her alot of her bad points, say she mus change this, change that de... and she gt B
Faci give me C. Comments were like I am quiet in class, try to speak up more... See you so interactive with your team mates, good keep it up... PPT explaining lots of unsure pts but they were gd.

haixxx... I duno wat to say la... the other 2 because of rj not answering questions den C norx... zzzzz... HATES RJ! forget it...

This week, I shall slack and get my B instead... Ppl slack can get B, hardworking get C. I rather slack and do nth nia!

Just went to check on my points... I gt 7 DA points for that stupid IG onli... ya ya ya... watever... it seems this sem is so unfair... tink I only got 1 module can relax lorx... cos that faci I know =3
and always give me better grades... haha... and I enjoyed his lessons norx...

so...
this semester, I totally DUNO wat I studying nia...
For Health and Wellness module, first lesson study wat is healty. today 2nd lesson study cosmetic surgery. Faints~
For Sociology for Sports and Leisure, first lesson study the sociology of tennis... tml's lesson duno wat lai de...
For Consumer Psychology, first lesson is buying behaviour.
For Sales Management, study wat is sales and marketing...
For Inclusive Physical Activity, study duno wat spinal bifial de...
last one is the worse bahxx... all the chim chim science stuff @.@!
but oso lucky that one is the faci that I know teach me de... hahaha... and my class is all DSES de... all science students except me norxx... haha.. ^^

hmm... now the grades of counting change le... UT 50% daily grades 50%...

Must work hard alot for my UT to push up my daily grades le norx... hard nia... hope I dun fail lehxx... I very scared nia...

That's wat been happening norxx... and my PP still stuck nehx... Advisor tell me alot of stuff, but... all drop inside the rubbish bin from another ear le... =X!
aiya... dies~

hmm... lastly is...
love saki~ ^^ haha... long time never chat with my dearie le lehxx... miss u lotss...
heart feels pain nahx... so kidda hide myself alot le... tired of living but still have to live with it...
Hope my dearie din worry too much...
anyway... dearie seems busy with urself and I feel that you are kidda of feeling sad inside ur heart... If you want to say, I will lend you a hearing ear...
I know you might say, I am not sad la... Got nth to tell... hahaha...

hmm... is all up to you to decide bahxx... anytime, you can jus find me... is only an sms away... phone is 24hrs on... but whether pick up anot, I duno la... hahaha... but normally will pick up la... haha...

Well~ Ending this blog entry now... haha... Take care of yourself, dearie~ ^^ loves you lots~

2007-09-14T22:54:00.000+08:00

I am sorry for being selfish...
I am sorry that I didn't consider about ur feelings at all...

2007-09-13T22:59:00.000+08:00

today...
kidda of normal to me...
went out for movie and lunch with cheri...
hmm... kidda of ok...
the food was nice...
a jap resturant looks like western de located at marina...
looks classy and most impt, food is nice ^^!
yummy~ but the price okok lorxx 10++++
haha... not buffet style de arhx...
hand itchy, went to buy clothes again... zzzzz....
sometimes mux really go whack my hands not buy clothes anymore...
but now tot of the clothe like wasting money nia... haixxx....
nvm lorxx... tink i wear it to sch bahxx...

oh ya... so I mapled today and had 60% already but is lvl 98 onli... still gt 1 more lvl to go... dun tink can acheive my goal bahxx... sadden...
but then, went to red drake to hunt steely b4 going out in the morning...
spent 30mins and red drake drop for me... was soooo happy~
haha... after got the steely, school called me...
then tell me that I got into the modules that I wanted...
so now have 3 classes...
W66J, E25K, E25H
haha... consider me stay back? from E25K... lolx...
3days at E25H lorxx....
then W66J i tink i GG le... cos all the students are yr 3? =X!
haha... duno~ mati norxx... they should know more than I do bahxx... hope can learn alot of things frm them... ^^ can oso ask about FYP and PP... hehehehe....
bleahxx...

2007-09-12T16:17:00.000+08:00

我很不服！！！
为何？没有位子也不说！就这样帮我安排。。。我不知道！！！
事事都不合我意。

today onwards, plz try to tok to me with caution...
I am sorry for any temper that might lose out any time.
Mood not really very good.
Might not even have the mood for jokes.
So sorry...

after some time,
I calm down myself already...
thanks to boss orhx...
cried in the afternoon again...
but he help me to calm down and stop crying bahxx...
now... I can only wait for the faci to reply me, telling me which available slots are left for me to take for my friday's class or lesson...
though I bear not much hope, but still hope that there are some suitable modules left for me...
was so unhappy about it that I showed the faci attitude... send an apology email to her already...

My mood really wasn't very stable recently... go high up or very down...

anyway, went to school with cheri today, cos she got a workshop but end up didn't go... haha... so went out for lunch with me... hmm...
she passed me a present that she brought back from shanghai or some other places but in china la... duno where... haha... kidda like it... cos she know that everytime i passed by some of the shops that sell would take a long time looking at it....
is a accessories hanger... hmm... ppl would say tat one not much special mahxx... but the special part to me is the fashion clothing bahxx... i like to see the clothes they wore on... is kind of fantasy to me... but it does looks nice... haha... the one she buy for me is like a ballet dress... cute and nice... oh ya... and she made a hp keychain for me... with my name on it... lolx... eeyore's on top of my name... lolx... haha... tink i will hang it on my hp bahxx.. heex...

it did cheer me up bahxx... haha... ^^
love it alot... ty cheri~ ^^ heex~

sorry to let everybody worry for me...
so sorry...
hontoni gomenasai! *bows*
soshite
arigato mina ^^

oh ya... just now about 7.35++ there is an earthquake duno if u guys feel it... haha... gt the news that it is frm jarkata... hmm felt that earthquake, kidda weird la... it makes me dizzy... @.@
lolx~ should be quite ok now i guess... hahahaha....

2007-09-11T21:57:00.000+08:00

today is 911 again... hmm duno how many years le worxx for that plane to crash...
*prays for them*

after so long, duno if there is anyone would remember that happen other than the family members of the victims... may them be blessed...

about my stuff... tink i dun wish to tok bahxx... ^^
if reli cannot take it... the most is go back...
currently now having fever and migriane again... suffer for tonite bahxx... hope tml would be better...
so tml going to school to settle sch stuff... hope i can get my 5 days back... kidda feeling sad that i would nid to go to sch alone for the next year lehx...
so better pray hard i would get my 5 days...

but oso can know that it is hard... cos they have already settle those stuff down le...
but i still feel kidda unfair to me... cos they din send me the email... *prays for myself to get 5days*

2007-09-10T12:24:00.000+08:00

ahhhh!!!!!!!!
today check my class le... sian~
hmm... same class as wei lun everyday... 2 days same class as karen... 3 days same class as cheri...
problem is the class is E25H~ dang~ H-class again...
my class all gt pattern de nia...
year 1 sem 1 is W15K
year 1 sem 2 is W15H
year 2 sem 1 is E25K
year 2 sem 2 is E25H
.... like like, so qiao! block change according to the year and the class remain for each sem and the level remain the same through out la...
den year 3 is E3 mehx?

angry about something is that... they din tell me that my day 4 class can't enter! den now onli gt 4 days again... haixxx.... so send the email to the person and ask if i can get a class for that day...

2007-09-09T21:54:00.000+08:00

Today, feeling weird...
been thinking alot today...
someone impt to me fly me aeroplane...
feel sad and broken up...
and i duno what to say...
something impt jus happen and gave up me...
saying one thing, heart thinking the opp...
end up is this...
i jus shake my head... care for him in the afternoon till evening till nite...
now, thinking back...
i asked for a break up...
i had no reason to ask for a break up but still did asked...
is not that i dun love him anymore...
is jus that...
i m feeling too sad or moody to give him any more happiness...
today...
i dun even feel like doing anything...
moody moody moody...
tried to maple, after awhile, jus off it...
tried to sleep, can't sleep...
tried to go out shopping alone, but i jus browse thru all the pathways onli...
end up in the nite...
i feel so irritated about both of my chair,
i go clean the whole thing... till my hand bleed...
cos was soaking in the water, and the rag was rough...
so the skin jus torn...
felt nth but the pain inside my heart...
dad and mum gt so surprise that i would do those stuff...
cos i dun do it often until they ask me to do it...
had no temper but onli saddness...
i duno where to express this out...
so i wrote in my blog... jus want to give this someone special to read and understand...
I always tot there is first love to be able to last for forever... which means that there is onli 1 love life in my life... i know that alot of ppl would say this is impossible... but is still my wish... but seems so that I had broken this wish myself... at least i learnt that, i m not the onli one having this wish...

my maple di let me see a senario of myself...
he and his gf and his gf's kor which is oso his best frend whom oso like her...
they had a quarrel ytd... patched up in the nite... had a break up this morning...
his gf told him the reason of breaking up is because she cherish the friendship she and her kor had...
everytime he saw his gf and her kor tgt, he would jus want to walk away... which i duno why...
so end up is, his gf left him and be with her kor...
so, wat's the meaning of this? i duno...
all i told him are craps to cheer him up... make him not to tink about it...
but lastly jus say, as long as u see her happy with him, u will eventually be happy as will...
the smile on ur face is the nicest one...
he told me that if he dun see her being happy with him, he will beat him up? and he will immigrant to another country soon to leave them alone and forget it...

forgetting would be hard, i said... why not jus remember them?
he said it is killing him...
so do which ever u feel better for urself...
and left the chat room...

me... i guess... still sticks to my original plan...
after my years in rp, i will immigrant too... somewhere in this world... which allows me to explore... running away, i guess...
but before that, in rp of 1 and a half year more, i foresee more difficulty... cos vincent a guy, whom i presume might be my next sem classmate... whom i caused him to hate me... i m sry...

2007-09-09T11:29:00.000+08:00

Have been mapling lately...
cos i duno wat to do at home...
lazy to go to library oso...
anyway PP is almost done... Left the recommendations and some editing to be done...
today... i remember when was young...
this day, which is also the last day of school holiday...
it would always be the most busiest day of all...
haha... cos din do any of the homework and would be rushing it...
and the nxt day for sure,
those that din able to fin, is copy from frends le... hahahah...
but now, I am sitting here so relax blogging... haha...
later playing maple again... think this time I would wan to chiong to lvl 100 le...
giving myself about 3 days to do it? =X seems crazy... haha... but i oso gt nth to do anyway...
might even play overnite? hope not.. i still wan my slp... lolx!!!

oh ya... ytd is someone's birthday orhx...
din give him my wishes...
I here by giving you my wishes:

Blessing you that all your wishes come true...
Do hope you enjoy ur birthday... ^^
Happy Birthday Vincent~

2007-09-07T22:34:00.000+08:00

世界上最美的风景 by 5566

我心中的天气一直不放晴
我眼部的眉心一直不开启
看天的风景多么美丽
谁愿意陪着我环游世界去
我是只小麻雀却从来不犹豫
有一天变美丽没有人会相信
向窗外飞去却从来不担心
谁愿意陪着我环游世界去
你是世界上最美的风景
多少晴雨风雪冰都是我的 Memory
你是世界上最美的风景
四处留下我的足迹想着你
我是颗小太阳就守在你心底
冷的时候请你快躲到我怀里
我们有约定我从来没忘记
我愿意带着你环游世界去
你是只小麻雀从来不犹豫
有一天变美丽只有我会相信
向窗外飞去却从来不担心
我愿意带着你环游世界去
你是世界上最美的风景
多么幸运你让我拥有你

~End~

2007-09-07T20:19:00.000+08:00

Dearie~
hmm... duno wat had happen to you....
but all I can say is that:
If you ever need someone to listen to you,
I will be here for you... phone is 24hours on...
If you ever need someone to support you,
I am always here supporting you morally....
If you need a shoulder,
My small, skinny shoulder is there for you...
If you want to take a walk but can't find anyone,
I will make time for you...
If you need a "rubbish bin" to shoot anything out,
I will listen to you...
Decision is always yours~
Do watever you wish that would make you feel better...
last thing is....
Do watever you want,
as long as the end of the day,
you will end with a smile on your face... ^o^

Cheer up, cos I will be here for you...

2007-09-06T20:27:00.000+08:00

hahaha.... so long never post blog le...
hmm... cos busy with the event bahxx... everyday like have meeting... den go to sch norxx...
ytd is the event date... for never to forget so I wrote here... lolx~
I can conclude myself that the event was a failure itself...
1st publicity not good... not enuf ppl de...
2nd information passed not well...
3rd poor communcation?
etc etc...
hahaha
watever... dun care le... jus noe that ytd been moody after something happen outside... almost tio scolding... lucky lisa came help...

the rest of the day become hack care hack care liao... walk here and there slacking...
also nth much la...
haha... dun tink gt anyone care oso... walk back home slowly myself... thinking stuffs.... haha...
but... all the well... it ended there.... ^^

Have fun for the rest of my 1 wk holidays... lols~

~*^*~Angel~*^*~

~^~Angel~^~